Am I racist?

The answer is I think so.  I grew up in the state of Maryland in the United States.  I witnessed frequent racism.  The situation in Maryland is much better four decades later but I probably soaked some up.  I was asked several times if I thought that white people are better than black people.  I always said that I considered whites and black as equals.  Good answer?  Not so fast!  I considered all people equal because I was born Jewish.  I used to think that Jews were better than all of the other peoples in the world.  That is racist!  Now let's move on.  I would never say the n____ word but I root for the Washington Redskins.  Is one racist word better than another?  The r_____ word is hurtful to Native Americans.  They usually don't like the word "Indian" any better.  Have I ever repeated a racist joke?  The answer is yes.  I feel bad about that now.  Eventually, I found a book of racist jokes.  Every chapter was devoted to a different ethnic group.  There were chapters on Irish, Pollocks, blonde women, Mexicans, African Americans, Hispanics, and  Jews.  Hey, what a minute!  I fall into the last two categories.  Racist jokes didn't seem funny anymore.  So evolved and learned but I wasn't completely free of racism.  Most of my work has been in hospitals where most of the patients and staff are African American.  I have dated several black women over the years.  One of my friends back in the 1990's commented on the fact that I only went out with light skinned African American girls.  Well, it was true.  I hadn't noticed that.  After that comment, I started paying attention to very attractive dark girls as well.  For a while, I only went out with girls with the darkest skin.  Oops! I was being racist again.  Now that I am in my 50's I go out with any woman from any race who shows an interest in me.  Am I less racist or just desperate?  I read an old book by the humorist Larry King.  I am not talking about the talk show guy who got married eight times.  I am referring to Larry King the humorist.  That Larry King wrote a raunchy and witty autobiography which he titled "The Accidental Racist."  He wasn't trying to be racist.  He actually liked black women.  Every so often the Larry King would say or do something which caused embarrassment and regret.  I identify with him.  I think it is important that I don't want to be racist or sexist or biased against anybody.  I believe that God created and loves everyone.  Fortunately, my friends seem eager to point out my flaws.